thoughts,,,,

Sense of direction impaired, feels like I'm groping in darkness. Intentions and actions are not in equity hence a deficit in fulfillment. I've got only one firsthand experience on growing up and I already think there should be a third option, none of the above. It sucks when certainty starts to seem like a fake orgasm all along, but I guess had I known the eventuality all along I wouldn't be bothering, would I? Be good or be good at it? I comfortably satisfy both but they don't certify me. Some people take for granted the good done them because they feel posing that front will make the good keep coming, of course we know the rest of them that just don't think u've done them enough to warrant gratitude at all. In desperation to hear from above, some people stack all their chips on the first voice in their head, others hear a series of voices termed ideas, thereby fulfilling one of their characteristics of being Godlike. This, science never propheced despite its practices being a testament to this power of creation those voices in one's head wield. A devastating self realisation e.g. Discovering you are gay, is way better than self ignorance or indulgences that conflict with the self because from that moment onwards, you will never do that which will discomfort u. Let me be the first to confess to some indecent indulgences, vices, habits and the like that I might have picked up along the course of my life. They all form part of my education or miseducation as the case may be. This exposure to diverse content, and the sifting through to identify that which u deem useful is really what education is about. School, class, and those other things similar to them is just academics. The flaw in the academic system is that it can only shape how u think from without, it can't actually teach u how to think. Ask a million people what the theme of their thoughts are and u will get a million different subject detail. This is the assurance that we will never run out of content as exposure to the different thoughts will provoke other thoughts. Are we still thinking in the 234 side of the world? Since I asked, please indulge me by responding.